My last workout before I had little baby Henry was suppose to be a relaxing and rejuvenating yoga flow in the peace and comfort of my own home. I found myself emotional throughout the entire flow. With tears running down my cheeks, I felt beyond blessed to have that little babe in my belly. All of the emotions that I had been feeling for the past 9 months came flooding over. I had planned to film this as a great pregnancy yoga flow and instead it became a very special moment for me. I felt impressed to write Henry a little note before I met him, and I wanted to share that with you. I hope you never forget that no matter where you are in your life, nothing can hold you back, nothing can stop you from growing, nothing can stop your progress…nothing, but yourself. Believe in yourself. Push yourself. Love yourself. AND anything is possible.
Dear baby Henry,
Your journey starts about 2 and a half years ago, that’s when your dad wanted to start trying for another babe. I always knew you were suppose to come to our family. Always. I wasn’t ready, and back then, I thought I would never be. The idea of pregnancy, the idea of gaining the weight again, everything that encompassed pregnancy terrified me. You see Henry, your mommy was lost, consumed in her own selfish fitness journey that she learned quickly wasn’t much of a journey at all. She knew she needed to find that missing piece. She worked hard to find what she was missing. Something that she had been missing her entire life, her self love. Over months and months, she found it. And found herself in a very real way awoken from her ignorance and fogged views. Now, here I sit 9 months pregnant, holding my hands to my belly while you kick inside me. How did I wait so long for you? Words cannot express how blessed I am to be able to have you in there, preparing to come down and join our family. Thank you for waiting. Thank you for being patient with me. Thank you for letting me be your mother even though I almost missed out on you. I almost gave up on the most sacred pure and indescribable honor of being your mother. I wish to tell you, that every single part of pregnancy is worth it. Every single beautiful difficult blessed part. You and your siblings are very much the reason why I am here. And somewhere along the way, I forgot that. Thank you for saving me.
I promise to love you like no one else, care for you like no one else, and be there for you like no one else. I can’t wait to start our journey together. Thank you for completing our family.
I love you.